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Poetry

2010-02-10T07:00:00.000-08:00

Hello!

I am just going to continue posting stuff on this page although I know no one reads it. :D

This time I am going to post a poetry I wrote in respond to Christina Rossetti's De PROFUNDIS. I admit its not a good poem, but this is what I wrote:

Here I stand, on a crowded street,

Look up and stare, the clouded sky;

Listen to my every heartbeat,

Which filled with lies.

What is a life without a lie,

Here I stand, questioning myself;

Here beside me, no one stands by,

Loneliness, cuffed.

Put my specs on and try to see,

But yet I still wonder at times;

Try to escape but I can’t flee,

Fate, sour as lime.

Like a salesman selling products,

A road many failed to achieve;

Yet here I travel, without luck,

In hope, a shift. `

The stars may be far ‘way from me,

But perfection ain’t what I seek;

Errors and faults are meant to be,

A life, I seek.

Impact"

2010-01-14T07:54:00.000-08:00

Hey,

I guess no one reads this blog anymore. So I am just gonna write all my stuff here to prevent me from forgetting. Many things happened. Though not much since the last post. Its 14 of January 2010 at around 10 o'clock at night. I had a conversation with someone which made me to write this post.

To conclude the conversation, I had got the full impact of truth. To know my chances and all the while where I am standing. Looking at the positive side, things are clear now. But I also got the cruel truth and how she thought about the matter. I really want to ask this, "Have you even realize that I am so deep into this? How can you suggest me to move on? Is fair really that important to you? Is that why you are still talking to me despite the awkwardness?" I don't mean to hurt your feelings but I just want to know.

There is also a really nice song that I found. "Lullaby" by Chase Coy. Is is just so nice with lyrics that fits just perfectly right. The chorus are:

" So tonight,

Sweet dreams and sleep tight,

I've been trying to hard,

Can't get you out of my mind,

And if this is how it has to be,

Just promise you won't forget me,

And I'll leave you with this lullaby,

Tonight.."

I am stuck to it now and dunno till when..

Long Time Gone..

2010-01-07T04:10:00.000-08:00

Hi..

I wonder what am I doing here? Trying to write something? Hahaha.. Or maybe because I just only remembered my password for this account..

Well, for the long period of time, things have really gone fast. Too many things to say. So to conclude, in 2009, in Sunway International School, I've made a bunch of really good friends. Stephanie, Paul, Naufal, Andrew, Ian, Evan and many more people. Actually, in SIS you cant really not find a friend. First, the population is small, and moreover, everyone is kind and friendly. Thanks guys, I really appreciate your support for me though I know sometimes I am a jerk. I think many people that know me well know this fact very well. I am selfish, a big liar, and a very jealous ass.. I know, I suck.. But I am trying to change.. Don't know if it will work, but at least I tried.

Well, besides friends, there are also many things that happened. Such as? Cant really explain, but I guess my friends probably know it already. The "ahem"! LOL.. And also, I realize that everyone that I had encountered made a chapter in my life. Some that made me love, some that made me become responsible, some that made me care and many other more. Again Thanks You and Sorry if I was a heartless jack*ss before.

Also, I know it sounds gay. But I really miss my old friends. CheeKeen, Rushan. ChiaLoon, Nicholas, ChoonYit, KahJo. Those retard but really fun things that we used to do. Hahaha.. Hope we can hang out one day.

Finally, if you are reading this, please kindly leave your name on the cbox yea! Thanks and Sorry.

Videos

2009-04-27T05:24:00.000-07:00

hey guys, i think this blog is really dead..Hahahhaa...
And if anyone stumble across this..i think he/she is lucky..Hahahaha
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Poetry...

2009-02-20T00:33:00.000-08:00

18 of feb..the day to hand in my poetry final assignment and my teacher Mr. Gregory asked us to read our poem to the whole class..i was so nervous that people say i am rapping but not poetry reading..lol..anyway..i learned quite a lot of thing in this unit..thnx to my teacher..

i used to be a person who is afraid of poetry..but now it seems quite fun..lol..and if u really look into thing deeply, your mind sometimes will give you thoughts that you never have before..you will look at things many way..sounds like an experts huh??hehehehehe..but that fact is true..i tried it when i was writing my poem..i got stucked and was out of inspirations and ideas..so whenever i see a thing..i will try to see if it fits into my poetry..lol..so desperate it sound..hahahaha...

anyway..these are the poem i made..give some some comment pls if u are ever goin to read these..thnx..

1) Free Verse:
Life is like a story,
Filled with misery and mystery;
The future, unpredictable,
Tried to be optimistic but still a pessimistic,
Many have failed to survive the depression.

Life is nothing but a play,
To succeed, learn to act;
Hide your emotions and feelings,
Let people have what they want;
And they will grant you your desires,
Oppose them and face your doom.

Every road has an end;
When the stage is closing,
We will all be rotten and forgotten,
Turning into nothingness and be gone.

So I am running,
Trying to get out of my life,
Breaking out the tradition and way of life;
But it seems impossible, unachievable,

2) Hatred (Couplet)
Give me a knife,
And I would immediately take a person’s life.

Give me my voice,
And I would shout into the air filled with moist.

Give me emotions and feelings,
And I would show you my hatred for things.

With lovely anger and revulsion,
Rational is nothing as I only have detestation.

With hatred and loathing,
I am daring to do anything yearning.

Hatred, detestation, revulsion,
Wrecking lives into a worthless conclusion.

3) My Love (Quatrain)
When bright sunlight shone upon your evil-like beauty face,
That was the first time I saw an angel which made me daze;
Your deep blue eyes froze me,
Like a child stunned by his favorite candy.

When the light breeze blew against your hair,
I smelled a sweet fragrance in the air;
You made the difference in my life,
Like a blind man suddenly sees light in his life.

When you are in danger,
I am undergoing pain which never tender,
Like an ant being put into an oven,
Afraid I might not be able to save you from being threaten.

When you enter the room,
You drive me nuts, making me crazy like being doom;
All I want is to love you this instance.
But do you even notice my presence?

Why Is Life So UNFAIR?!!?

2009-02-07T06:44:00.000-08:00

Yesterday night, my friends invited me to CHS to prepare for merentas desa. Eager and want to meet my friends, i quickly promise them i will be there.

Then, today the most miracle thing happened..most of the time, alarm clock is quite useless to me. cz if it rings, i will jz shut it up and continue to sleep..however, today, when the alarm clock ring, i quickly jumped out of my bed..as if i was preparing to defend myself for not being atack..lol..

when i reached school, we prepared for the event. paint n nailed some board which are goin to be use that day. the day went quite normal, but i had lots of fun..its been a long time since i see my friends.

there is a say 'the good things in life will never last long'...well i really HAD to agree to that fact sometime although i am always a optimistic..after dinner, i asked my dad whether i can go to stay overnight in school on friday, before the merentas desa..and guess what i got?! NO..well at least he said some sense into me. n i was like "ya..ya..true.."at that time. but now..thinking about it, its like 'feels like f**king someone to express the dissapointment man..haiz..life is a misery sometimes...totally like a 'PIECE OF SH*T'..

but...at least he promised me i can stay overnight for amazing race..but i am still not sure whether we can stay overnight for that event or not..cz the prez still havent announce yet..haiz..so its like kind of 'EMPTY PROMISE'..

HAIZ..

CNY

2009-01-30T09:11:00.000-08:00

me n my cousins..

This year's Chinese New Year seems as normal as before..although i got extra few hundred bucks from my grandparents for getting good grade in PMR..lol..
I felt very sleepy all the time..dunno why..maybe its because i m too busy all the time..playing..eating..drinking..but not GAMBLING..i bought a new carom board with my angpao money too..hehehehehe..
Another year past again..haiz..time flies..lol..but overall..its a good new year..n a better year later on..hahahaha...

New School

2009-01-30T08:53:00.000-08:00

I just change to SIS( Sunway International School).
new school..new environment..so odd..the whole school only have about 200 people..but the syllables are quite easy..at least for now..so far so good..lol..its quite sad to leave my previous school..i have lots of friends there..haiz..but for the future..lol..at least we havent lost contact yet..hehehheh..